here i go again...

I'm trying to get some organizations to help pay for my bills because we are so behind. I'm so worried that I wouldn't be able to get help. I have an phone interview with the Family and Children's services tomorrow. I'm worried Kai will make too much money. it would just figure. we don't have enough money but as far as these organizations are concerned we have plenty of money. I'm so tired of being broke. I'm so tired of worrying about where every penny is going. I'm so tired of feeling guilty for spending more money than I should and that's only a treat here or there. I'm so tired of eating bad food to deal with my depression. I want to be happy. I want to enjoy life. I want to enjoy my family. Dax has never know what we are really like. he's only known us being stressed and sad. It's not fair.