Boy my stomach hurts

i don't know what it is but my stomach is in knots. it doesn't make the stress any more manageable...it actually makes it worse. I could have used more sleep too. Dax just doesn't like to keep to his side...it's actually starting to get really annoying. we need a bigger bed.

the meditation went very well last night. i think i was mediating for 6 minutes total. at times i felt myself go into a trance...unfortunately i'd shake myself out of it by recognizing the state. but i was doing well. of course the sex and orgasm just before the meditation helped a lot. it was nice to connect with Kai...he needed it too.

things really have to change over here. we need to have things work out a little better than they have. i'm really tired of all the stress and negative situations in my life. I'm ready for some peace. Hopefully i'm on the right path.