inspired

for years i've wanted woman friends. I would watch movies and feel the pangs of jealousy because i never had good friends that were also woman. Today I consider many woman good friends. I have ladies that I can call and I know if they are available will talk with me about anything that is wrong. These woman are across this country and even across the ocean. I feel lucky to have these woman in my life.

Today I talked with a woman who is having some serious personal problems with drugs. She's actually going into rehab. but she took time out to listen to my problems and offer some advice. advice that I think is worthwhile and I should follow up on.

It's time for me to find myself and do what is right for me. I'm tired of always being scared and not wanting to deal with anything. i don't deal with anything that is unpleasant in my life...although, it's not pretty what i have to deal with. it's shit that is a mile high. Luckily, i know that there are people out there that care about me and will always be there. I'm not worried about losing these people as friends and i'm not worried about being stabbed in the back. It's amazing how petty people can be but not my friends. My true friends are always there and always willing to be honest.

It's a nice feeling.